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I gave up

Posted by Akash under Rants on February 4th,2008. No Comments.

Today was one of the worst school days of my life. As I look back, it wasn’t too bad. It’s just… things never went as planned for me. I’m not going to explain, because I give up.

I give up on caring about things not going as I wanted. In my nature, they always have to go was planned, and eventually, they do. Today was that day. Nothing happened as I planned, but I was eventually satisfied. I didn’t have to make myself satisfied. It just foiled out. Now, I do realize that I can’t just stop caring about my goals and my dreams. I still want to be what I want to be, and I still want the things that I want. I realize that it’s never going to happen exactly as I plan, but before today, that’s how my mentality was.

Just wanted to let that out :). So I have a sore throat that is probably going to turn into the flu. I had an audition about forty-five minutes ago, and the adrenaline numbed the pain, according to my accompanist (also my voice teacher). No school tomorrow because of elections, so that’s my chance to rest and get better! GO OBAMA!